to the world at large

It's probably been said before, but if it helps, I'll say it again.

I stood on Monday, candle in hand, fire in heart, thinking one single thing What can I do?

I hate being useless and the past four months and these senseless acts of cowardly violence makes me so mad that if faced with a perpetrator I may not show mercy. I want them gutted and bled and burnt and terrible things to haunt their minds, but that I realise is not the best answer. I've been told to live as normal, to show that i'm not scared, but since I never was that's fruitless advice.

So I'm asking, with the utmost sincerity (and at the cost of sounding ridiculously cheesy) and putting it here so I never forget myself. I want a special gift for my 19th birthday, from all of you...

ONE RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS

at least, I'd like more but one would be enough, you all are brilliant human beings anyways, but for my sake do something...

 there has been a lot of crap put out in the world, a lot of bad hurtful feelings and people are tense and horrible and busy and lying cheating idiots. But for my sake, give me a gift, and indulge in a spectacular random act of kindness, and once that's over... if you have time, do another one... Don't think about it, don't think about what who will think, just do something, help someone...anyone... 

On my part, in exchange of this, I promise to do the same, a sort of return gift...

Please, from the child in me to you guys, I want something special, please please please can I have it?